Its near to the end of year 2013.

Sorry that I never post for like 2 months?

They always say we must look forward and not stay in the past. BUT... I will still wonder why sometimes. We use to be so happy and enjoy each other's talking but now, we are like strangers. I know I should not be talking about this topic anymore because its already more than 6 months already and should be dump aside. I may look ok or even happy but my mind, my heart.. everyday its occupied by him. In the morning when I on the way to work, in the afternoon when I take a break from work, in the evening on the way back to home and at night before I sleep. Why must you make me fall in love with you and then let me wake up like a fool? I'm just hurting myself everyday with my mind and heart occupied by you. Do you know that this is uncontrollable? I did not purposely do that, its just that my heart is used to having you being so nice and sweet to me, its just that my mind is used to having you talking to it.

The saying goes.. time will always heal. Christmas is coming, and it reminded me of the first time I have the chance to interact with you during the Christmas gathering with the whole group of friends. I'm smiling but my heart is tearing.

The love hate feelings of memories.