I have not posted anything for a month.
The last time I remembered, I told myself to give up on him.
I did, and somehow succeed.
Now when I see him, I don't have that kind of 'heart pumping fast' feelings.
I do not get upset because he never care about me.
I was fine.

Then today, I knew from him something.
I ask him if he owe me something as a friend or more than that.
He replied: u're always more than that.
I was shocked and surprised.
And I felt the same to him too.
But then not as strong feelings as in the past.

I hope I could walk out of this completely one day :)