Each time I get so excited while thinking of giving you surprises like getting you chocolates and nice snacks for you, but after you get it from me, you never express any returns. I know I'm silly, stupid and still stupid. There was only 1 time you told me, I have done alot for you and we should go out have dinner and watch movie. Yes, you said but it never happened. Many things you tell me it did not happen. I wait, wait and still waiting... until now I felt so tired... very tired... I really don't know your feelings for me still there, or you are just playing with me, or you don't want to be close to me because you scare I can't let go again... the other day you said, one day if I'm not sensitive over the words you said, and one day everything will change for me, you will be happy for me. What a perfect model answer you gave me. But when is this one day going to happen, no one knows. But as time goes by, I am being convinced that no matter what I do, nothing will improve between both of us.. its time to move on happily and let go completely. No more thinking of you, no more worry for you, no more buying stuffs for you. No more things related to you and we will stay as just friends. Sometimes I want to leave the company, because that would help alot without you around and no contact. But this is not fair for myself...

Its not that I have not put in effort to walk out of this, but just every time I decide to do it, you either appear in front of me, or you will talk to me.. then I'm back to the same again.. it sucks, and i feel angry with myself! :(

From now onwards, I will prove that I can move on and let go completely!!!!!! I can do it....

I know many out there will be very happy for me if I can walk out of it! JIAYOU!!!