why did i feel sad and down when you are not working there anymore. i should be glad because we won't see each other anymore. but i was so worried that i sms you to ask you how have you been. silly isn't it. and panicking because you did not reply me the whole night. then you call me the next day evening to talk. why can't you choose to reply me in sms, instead of calling me. the moment we talk over the phone, i can feel that you are sad because you wont see me there anymore. and this makes me feel very frustrated. why can't you just focus everything of yours on ur gf who is staying with you right now. why must you talk to me in that tone. just a simple call over the phone, you are pulling me back to your side alittle when i already decide to walk away and dont be bothered about you and what happened all these while. sigh! i seriously feel very frustrated, confused and lost. now the situation has changed, its never like the last time when we got to know each other. you never really tell me what's in your mind and i dont wish to be played like a fool.

i just want to vent out my frustration here. because i have no one to talk to and no one understands how i feel now. i hope time will make me feel better. and i really dont want to put hope on it that maybe, something will work out. i dont want to have that thinking in my mind!