The past Friday his friend booked a hotel under corporate rate. Which means alot of drinking will be done because they love to chill and drink and play cards as it was CNY festive season. One of his friend driving so I was pretty sure he will go home with her which it was the initially plan he told me, probably 4am he will go home sleep. So I waited for his text while sleeping then came a text at 5plus in the morning saying "going sleep baby". And it set me wondering why he text that. Usually he will say he's home. then followed by going to sleep already. It make me upset for the whole morning while spending time with mum with movie. Then finally at around 12pm he text again and told he he was at the hotel and he stayed over. At that point of time I was quite pissed. Why didn't he just tell me straight that he is staying over at the hotel in the morning so that I won't be so worried. Then we texted quite heated. Even he was being forced to say "den maybe i am not the one". My heart was tearing. He thought I din trust him. But the point was I was worried. Its not that I dont trust him outside with his friends.
Then we met up, both keeping quiet. His throat pain. Then after lunch we talked. He say if I continue like this its not good. Its kind of suffocating him. He needs that freedom himself besides having a gf. Then I reflected. The same problem in every rlsn of mine. Too sticky and want the man to report to me his whereabouts. I know I was wrong, and after few failed rlsn, I have start to change and control. But its still not fully letting go. This is something I need to learn. I cannot control him too much, cannot stick to him too much. I told myself I won't repeat the same incident again. Because it both hurts us.
Then he explained saying his friend left at 12 midnight, which is very early so he decided to stay on and stay over. And he was tipsy so he never text me properly. So the whole truth is out. He told me he could have choose to lie to me and say he went home instead of telling me the truth because he knows I will be unhappy to know he stay over without informing me first. I am glad he rather choose to be honest then telling a white lie to prevent me from being upset. :)
We are forever learning as we grow up each day. Regardless in work, life, family or love. And we must learn to love and let go. Too much love will cause friction.
He no longer work in the company. Means no more seeing him everyday at work and having lunch together. I need to adapt. And also these 2 weeks have continuous lectures which I need to adapt because means really no time to meet up on weekdays. Jiayou ba! Everything will turn out fine and happy! =P
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