We hardly whatsapp ever since that day we meet after the taiwan trip. And we spoke alot and become awkward with each other. Because you decided to put a stop to it before there is any attachment. Did you ever wonder how cruel this decision is? You can easily make this decision because at the end of the day, you are not the one being hurt. If you have felt uncomfortable in taiwan, I would rather you tell or talk to me in private on this. Rather than after the trip, come back ignore me. Make me look like a stupid fool who thought that finally its improving and happily waiting for your whatsapp. No matter what you do, it will still hurt me. Maybe in my life, I was meant to be let go by the one I like and I am meant to be alone in my life. Love will not blossom  in my life. Ya, that is how pathetic I felt after all these stupid rlsn pain and hurt. I am human, I have feelings and each time I like a person, I will put in 100% effort. Not those playing type or testing type. Like I said, everything was FINE before the trip. Why must it be ruin?

When I ask you out for movie, you reply see how. When I ask you if you free to meet, you said no because blah blah blah meeting friends and family. Should I really believe what you said, and hoping another day when you are less busy you will remember that we should at least meet up? Or should I just treat it as though you are rejecting me with some fake reasons and your motive to do that was because you just wanted me to leave you alone totally and don't contact you even you said its best to be as friends and you will still hang out with me? My mind is exploding thinking of all these scenarios.. which one will make me feel better perhaps? I feel very frustrated because I am reluctant to just let it go off completely just like this. Then what about the things you told me or chat with me last time, they are all bull shits? Lies? Fake entertainment? If you don't like me, you won't have told me or chat with me like this. I cannot push you, I don't want to pester you, I cannot rush you because I know you don't like these, so I control myself and restrict myself from whatsapp you. Am I wrong?

Please tell me what to do. I am sad, hurt, and frustrated. Even if it was just a while to have a quick chat or catch up, I would be very happy because in my heart, I do not want to feel like you are purposely avoiding me. You always said something is missing. Ya what the hell was it? I really hope I could help you to walk out of your upset for your previous rlsn.

Maybe I should not have like you. :(