I don't know why suddenly things turned out this way. We stop communication and no sms, no calls. And now I have to force myself to be determined to walk out of this rlsn, to have no more feelings for him. Its really a toture every day especially at work, especially when I accidentally saw you, no expression, no Hi or Bye. Nothing, everything seems to put a stop to it. I know its good for me if only I am determined to end this, but at the same time I felt like stabbing my heart with knife during this 'transition' period. How to forget someone when you like him so much, when you did not expect him to come to you to accept to be his gf? I never thought this kind of story would happen in my life. But sometimes I think back, why must he do this to me? Why is it me? Was everything fated? Or I was just the stupid one to accept him. And now? being thrown aside like a toy, like a doll? Seriously these are all terrible feelings. My heart has been broken again. I had to pretend I don't know you, I have to pretend that I don't have feelings for you, I had to stop all communication with you, I had to let go this.

Pretend that you don't have feelings for someone when you truly still like him, its really heart ache. I have to overcome all these, so that I can have a new beginning and move on. I had to do this myself because no one can help to solve my heart break but myself. If I continue, I would be hurting myself. Even if I am putting a stop to it, I am also hurting myself. At the end of the day, I just tell myself, these should not have happened in the first place, shouldn't have started, and shouldn't have communicated.

This shall be the last post about him, I HOPE SO! :(