He doesn't even know why I was upset. He doesn't even care or show concern about me. The truth hurts, especially when the 'wound' is recovering, and it got tear apart again. The feeling was terrible! That Friday I really couldn't hide my tears at work, I went to toilet and cried 3 times, and I even feel like crying when I was having dinner alone before class. But somehow rather, I still managed to attend the class attentively. But I really felt no mood. On the way back home, my tears start again, and after I reach home lie on my bed, I really couldn't control and started crying without letting my mum know that I was crying. You know how that feels, when you don't want your mum to know but you needed to cry badly to feel better. I cried until I couldn't even breath properly, nose blocked and only could breathe through the mouth, and it goes on until I fell asleep. Sat morning I woke up with swollen eyes, I can't even open my eyes fully. =( But I did feel better after a night's cry. And me and my mum went to Vivo to watch Smurfs because I told her I need to cheer up abit by watching that movie. Indeed it helped. :)

Well, if people ask me, i would really have no comments. We went in too deep, and I really loved him. Yes, as till now, I still have feelings for him and I don't deny it. He knows it too. Sigh. We just met at the wrong time and things goes wrong because I was still the 'extra' one. Sad to say but that was the truth. I really should angry with him, and hate him, because that would lessen my feelings for him. But each time I am determined to do that, I would always bump into him at work and chat with him in office online. If there is a chance for me to talk to him, why not grab it? Seriously, by doing so does not help me get out of it but I really did my best.

He say we will go out this week. I hope that's true.

I just know I really cannot let go. =X