Hmm. its been a week since last updated. i remember just a week before national day i was sick, fever for 2 days. then came the long weekend during the national day but i totally forgot what i have done, probably slacking and rotting at home most of the time. haha! then this week seems so short, because only worked 4 days. (: and weekend again was slacking and rotting at home. sometimes i just plain lazy to go out during weekend alone, because everywhere is crowded!

I'm still not used to walking to lakeside mrt every morning to go to work. I'm so used to taking bus there. Sigh, the buses morning always so packed with students and their big bags, sometimes five buses drove past without a chance to board. So i was super duper disappointed that I decided to walk to the train station, and always so hot no matter how slow I walked. *grr* That's the annoying part!

Anyway, recently my company had a new girl. Though not my dept, but I really can't stand her crazy-ness over this malay guy, which I also think he's quite good looking. She can be so daring, asking the guy to go home together, shout out his name like there's no one around. Totally like a bitch! But past two days, her behaviour changed. Then I came to know that she's now pestering another guy from downstairs. I totally cannot tolerate her! Like a siao za bo around in office. Lucky i don't need to interact much with her, if not I will feel like slapping her!

"I finally sorted out my stubborn thoughts that I really should stop all these nonsense. Because I truly know that at the end of the day, you can't give me what I want, and I will be the one being hurt."

Something troubled in my heart, that I wish he was referring to me. But then, I wonder if its really what I thought, will I have the courage to accept. SIGH!!