i felt abit sore throat since last night. I can feel that I'm getting sick soon. and I don't really like to be sick, esp during the situation right now. I try my best to keep my mind occupy so that I won't think of him so much, I won't miss him so much. But it doesn't really make much difference. I start to think, is this the way he's trying to tell me the answer and the decision that he made, by not reply my sms and don't see him online at all. No contact since last thurs afternoon till now. I start to feel worry for him, but the next sec I thought maybe he's back with the ex now. Its kind of a torture when you start to think of all these. You can't confirm anything till you see that person again. But if I get to see him, do I want to ask him all the doubts I have, or I just wait for him to tell me the answer. As I said, I'm already mentally prepared that the answer I heard might not be the answer I wanted.

她是你三年多的前女友，我只不过是你刚认识三个月的女生。
这场爱情游戏里，我觉得我已经输了。
因为我始终觉得你到最后一定是选择她而不是我。
但又在一旁默默地希望，我应该还有机会吧。
或许如果我没去那里运动，就不会遇到你。
没遇到你，就不会对你有感觉。
我就不会那么烦，那么心痛了。
为什么我又再次的受伤害。。。