sometimes i can't help but keep thinking what are we now? its like, it seems like a dream to me. i need a answer from you. i'm actually waiting for you to tell me. but i not gonna rush things with you. i listen to my mum's advice. she once told me that the next time i like a guy, dont put it too much feelings, dont fall too deep so fast because at the end of the day, i will be the one being hurt. that's what i'm doing now. controlling my feelings towards you. you say its hard, you need time to heal from your previous three years long relationship. i respect your decision. but then when there's no sms from you the whole day, i feel so lost suddenly. i know, i sound foolish here. like a idiot, like a silly fool. sigh! seriously i feel so frustrated now. i also dont know what am i to you now.

the worst, i'm having period now. so you can imagine my frustrated mood right now. going to sleep. tmr on leave, will be getting a present for him tmr for christmas. i will be going jb on sat and sun. he will be attending my friend's friend birthday party on sat, i'm sad because i can't be there with him together cuz i will be attending herbalife personal development training in jb. GOOD NIGHT!