Something happened ytd. it makes me feel confused, frustrated, scared. that's what i'm feeling right now. and it make me realised, am i really ready for a new relationship? am i really ready to move on? did i really forget about everything from the previous one? i mean, i dont even know the answers myself. it hurts me when i'm stucked with this again. and i feel so tired suddenly. mentally tired. tired of finding the answers, tired of searching, hoping, wishing for the right one. its like so tired that i just want to sleep forever and nv wake up to face the reality. dont need to face these questions every single minute. its like slowly torturing my heart. i felt like there's a big cut, a big hole in my heart all these while. sometimes when it starts to heal, it hurts even more when things doesn't work out. sometimes i have to fake the smile out in front of others, because i dont want them to know that, actually i'm still feeling hurt inside. the truth is, its still hurting. the truth is, i hate to be feeling like this. the truth is, i still can't move on. the truth is, i can't be happy anymore. i really tried very hard and tried my very best, at the end of the day, my heart is still feeling sad. i don't even know if i was doing the right thing, because i can't believe i did that. what has happened to me? i really don't know when my heart will recover. and i'm slowly GIVING UP! i will just carry on my single life like this till old.