someone did an action, and turns me off completely. someone give me that fuck up attitude face ytd, and hurts me. someone made me realised that, i'm still scare of getting into a relationship (if only one day it really worked out, but for now just friends). anyway, i think i really should not be to close with them. they are having complicated background. i mean like their character last time, like gangsters. typical Malays. sorry, I'm not racist. its just based on the Malays i know. if i really want to have a guy in my life, i would not choose someone who has complicated background, someone who is not Chinese race. not racist, but just own preference.

i feel so down ytd after gym. and i really feel like crying but i can't cry out. that's the worst feeling. i feel sad even till now.

i just want a simple life. a simple love life.
Is that too much to ask for?