seriously, i really hate it when there's last min changes. actually i already predict it will be like this today, but i just dont want to believe it will happen, but indeed it happened. how many times like this already? countless!!! i'm kinda getting irritated and angry about it now!

the gathering with june,mei,melissa,pat was great!


met up at 2pm, grab the tickets and we sat like 3rd row from the front. then went to heeren to sit down and gossip. i really happy that melissa finally leaving NOL. that place is becoming more and more worst. hypocrites, liars, bitches! i was glad that i was the first one among them to leave, becuz i volunteered to be retrenched. oh well. then the movie was kinda flimed in a different kind of cartoon movie. if you have watched it, you will know what i mean. though it was not a fantastic movie afterall. i still looking forward to Alvin & The Chipmunks 2 and Tooth Fairy (Acted by The Rock, MY IDOL!) i can't wait to watch them in Dec! and i still have not watch 2012. sigh! when? our planned dinner was at Aston, but the queue? All the way to the escalator there. So we went back to PS and had Iciban Sushi! Nice! Photos in fb.. =P overall, we really had fun together ytd. been so long since we last met and so many things to catch up with each other and suddenly miss the good old days where we worked together in the same company. now all separated.


suddenly thought of those silly thoughts i had in the past. like when i was with him, i already start worrying abt him for his ns life, like how would i survive without him near me. i really can't live without him back then, i really can relate that feeling when that day we broke off. heart pain, endless cry. it felt worst than a family member who died. probably becuz i love him so much, maybe becuz i can't accept it at the very beginning, maybe becuz i din expect him to be like this, maybe becuz i din expect our relationship would end like this. so many so many what if, maybe, probably. i think he's better without me around. but still alot of things i can't forget that fast. alot of things still will make me think of us. i need time. lots and lots of time. i really dont know how much time i need. and to think back all these silly thoughts, i suddenly felt so childish. maybe we were both young when we started. if i were to start a relationship at mid 20s, maybe it will be a different kind of love story. ya, at least i think this way. i nv wanna go through that childish times ever again. we must be matured in love.

ok, enough crap.
preparing to go gym now. ALONE!