Sometimes when you look at others, you feel so envy. Its really very envy feelings. I really want to be like others, but I realised I can't commit even if there's a chance for me to be like them. Its just so contradicting in life. You really want it but at the same time you dont want it when it really comes to you. Why is life like this?
I almost cry out in the train when all those songs played in my mind.
I feel so shitty now. Upset, disappointed, afraid, tired, restless, lost.

I hope i feel better when i wake up tmr.