As everyone is happily celebrating CNY, on the 2nd day morning my uncle was found dead on the ground floor. He jumped down, it was so sudden and now every year's CNY 2nd day we will always remember him. People always comfort us by telling us, he is now in a better place we should be happy for him but you are not his family members how to understand our feelings. Life is so fragile. I learnt to be nicer to my 'father' which left us 13 years ago because of a woman, in the past I used to hate him but now it has been so many years, what's done is done. We can only learn to 看开点。At least if next time he pass away, he left this world with no regrets. I can see that he is also very regretted what he did in the past. But there's no way things will turn back to how it use to be. We can still meet up for meals, but we can never be a family again.

Recently my colleagues kept things behind my back. One has confirmed transferred to the other dept, the other one has no confirmation yet. 2nd one confessed to me and still say hope I can join them in the other dept. I told the 2nd one it will never happen because they never even ask me, where got chance to go. Furthermore, I don't really care to be able to go to that dept. I just felt betrayed and I was so angry that until now I still don't really talk to them, unless there's work related. I treat them more than colleagues and friends, and yet this happens. 人不为己，天诛地灭。Humans are all selfish. Its their life, they make their own decisions. There are hardly friends in working world and I learnt my lesson hard this time. But never expect me to treat you the same anymore, it will never happen. I was glad that my ex-manager understood my feelings and 开解 me when she came back from holidays. At least someone knows how I really felt.