Oh no! Its been a month since the last time I blogged. Does this shows that I'm too busy? Or simply don't have the mood to write anything.

Anyway, for the past few weekend, me and my mum have been cleaning up the house and painting the rooms. Finally today we finished the whole house, I felt very bad because my mum did most of the painting, because I was inexperienced and also my right arm very weak, easily tired because I broke it before. But still, I did my best to help her whenever I can. A good new is we no longer rent out the room, now me and my mum sleep at the other room, the master bedroom becomes the study room and mini gym! We just bought the cross trainer back. I felt so fat ever since I stopped going to gym to exercise and never control my diet. So now, I gained like 4-5kgs! I really cannot stand it anymore because I'm never felt so fat before! I'm going to slim down as fast as possible. Depending on my determination! Hope I can achieve it before my school starts! Yes, my part time study will start in near end Jan 2011. I'm so nervous and afraid. I wonder if I can cope with work and study at the same time. A very big challenge for myself in 2011. I really hope everything will be fine. =)

During end of Nov, me, my aunt, my mum and my cousin went to Penang for a 4d3n short trip. I would say its not worth the money. =X The 2nd day I vomited because of the mountain ride up and down. The 3rd day I had diarhhoea for 1/2 a day because I think I ate something not right. Then the flight delayed for 2 hours when returning back home. Oh well.. no comments much for this trip, a good and bad experience. :P

Its coming to an end to 2010. I start to look back the things I have done, and the decisions I have made. It brought back alot of memories. Those happy and sad memories just flow in my mind every night. I felt I have learnt alot, no matter is work or life. Work wasn't really happy for the past few weeks, I survived through. Next will be the change in Jan2011 with the new boss to report to. I wonder how it will go, but let's just move on and see how.

The love life of mine has been pretty quiet and calm all these years with a few disruption which make me learnt the lesson the hard way. It makes me even more believe that there ain't any good guys around in this world. If there is, probably you are just lucky. I can't deny that sometimes I envy friends or people that I know are happily in love with their partners. But sometimes I feel, getting a boyfriend isn't the most important issue right now in my life. I think study, money and work is more important and not forgetting spending time with my mum! Which sometimes she will nag that I am too close to her, if one day she leaves me, I'm going to be upset for a very long time. Sigh! Like what people always say, just let go and move on. After all these years, I can truly say that even if you try all means to mend the broken heart, its still broken. It still has cracks, it still has scars. It will never be the same again. Sometimes I ask myself, if given another chance for me to rewind back to the past, I would rather not have a relationship with a guy, but on the other hand, if I wasn't being taught the lesson, I wouldn't have been 'matured' enough to see the world of love-hate relationship. So it does help me in growing up isn't it? Haha! Contradicting growth.

Let's just hope 2011 would be a better year for me and everyone I know! :)

I love to be alone, but I hate to be lonely.