I felt like crying so much when I was on my way back home on train. But I was afraid people looking at me. Then the moment I came home and went to bath, my tears just flow. I didn't know I would feel so sad. I didn't know that I would be crying while typing this entry. I didn't know it will hurt me so much since I was the one who decide to be like this. I didn't know that I will cry so badly this time.