so many times i wanted to sms you. sometimes i felt that i really misses you alot. so much so that i wanted to sms you, so much so that i want to let you know that i miss you. but i can't. i'm not a heartless kind of person and neither am i an emotionless kind of person. times when i feel upset and down, i think of you. times when i'm alone, i think of you. i think of everything that has happened all these while, from the day we knew each other. it might sound foolish to others, it might not seems to worth it for being so frustrated about all these. but at right now, i can't think of others but you and writing down this entry. for now, i really just want to hug and hold you tight and dont need to worry about anything else. but i know its not going to happen. the more i try not to think of you too much, end up i thinking of you all the time. why must go through this again!