quite glad that this week i have 1 extra day to rest.

this morning after i bathe, suddenly my left eyelid keep moving on its own. then i was thinking, shit! must be something unlucky going to happen to me. but it keeps going on even till i reach office. in fact, even until now, its still moving slightly on its own. and i keep rubbing it because its uncomfortable. then i can feel the skin ard my eye, felt abit painful so i stop rubbing. it feels even more irritating when the wind blows. sigh! i seriously dont know what happened to my eye.

monday had the personal training with Syah. it was kinda torture to me because the whole 50mins was focused on my arms and upper body! now my shoulders feel painful and aching. hope tmr will feel better, cuz i think tmr will be doing the same training again! then i was like giggling and laughing, because i can't concentrate with a not-so-bad looking guy in front of me when doing the training. at the end of it, he ask me if i felt uneasy with him one-to-one. and pls! obviously i feel uneasy, because that's the first training i had with him one-to-one. i think i should really focus more so that i wont waste the money i spend.

then monday, i cried in office. because my boss was harsh to me with his tone. i was abit frightened by his tone that i couldn't control my tears.

then again, i really seriously hate it when people tell me that, its time to move on. its been so long time already. but my heart can't. no matter how hard i tried, the heart just stays there. if you know what i mean here. anyway, the guy who keep 'disturb' me, he stopped approaching me in gym and i felt kinda of relieved. that's all.

i think, whether you are able to trust that person or not, its really up to yourself. you never know unless you try. it applies to everything in life.

have you ever try to take a step forward, but at the same time feel scared and afraid that you might get hurt again?