i feel very frustrated when i see/heard something that reminds me of a person. i feel moody for the past few days. i really dont know why. and i get angry easily, feels emo easily. i also dont know what is happening to me? every moment it reminded me, my heart tears. i should feel happy and be happy. but i just can't do it. i almost cried in the train today. i wonder if anyone out there feels like this in their life before? i could still remember very clearly every single thing even after a few years. i really wish i could forget everything. someone asks me, after so long still hurt. but indeed it hurts. really hurt too deeply. sometimes my heart pains. emotionally hurts. like i feel so afraid if any guys were to treat me very good now, if they try to be close with me. i feel scared and frustrated. because i dare not make the step forward to make a fresh start. i can't. simply can't get rid of the barrier. its like... my friends all knows that i broke my arm before, and i dont even dare to try skating or even do sports that will hurt my arm. its the same feeling. there's always the phobia there that you need time. lots and lots of time to overcome. saying is always easier than doing it. if you ask me if it still hurts after so long, sometimes i have no comments and i just keep quiet. sometimes i just lie and say no. sometimes it hurts me when someone asks this qns to me. i really cannot forget.. if time could turn back, i wish nothing has happened at that period of my life. in my mind, staying single for the rest of my life... in my heart.. wish to be loved.. why are humans so contradicting.. why can't it just be as simple as i want it to be.. why as we grow older, things get complicated.. life gets weird.. life gets complicated as well... i really feel sick and tired of this kind of feelings.. people always says, time will heal, time will heal.. but nv know when will the time comes? 1 month, 1 year, 10years? sometimes we hate love, and sometimes we want love. FRUSTRATED! how to control not to cry.